This year in Chapel we have been singing Chris Tomlin's song "Sovereign".
Sovereign in the mountain air
Sovereign on the ocean floor
With me in the calm
With me in the storm
Sovereign in my greatest joy
Sovereign in my deepest cry
With me in the dark
With me at the dawn
In your everlasting arms
All the pieces of my life
From beginning to the end
I can trust you
In your never failing love
You work everything for good
God whatever comes my way
I will trust you
And as I sang the song on week 2, I completely came undone. Because sitting beside me, singing along, playing with my hand, hugging me, smiling at me, batting her beautiful eyelashes at me was little sister. THE little sister from here.
Y'all. I cried when her name was on my list at the beginning of the year (and I knew it would be ... I've had 4 of her 5 siblings. And only 4 because 2 came through Kindergarten together. Boo.) I cried when she appeared in my room on the first day of school ... holding the hands of her two besties. Not because I was sad she was in my room, but because I was overcome. I remember well those days 4 years ago. I remember holding her in the airport. I remember every feeling when I found out she was coming home. I prayed hard for her ... long before I knew her name or that she had the most ah-mazing eyelashes.
They are beyond glorious. But I digress ...
And in that song I heard God whisper to me that yes. Yes He is sovereign. And if I begin to question or doubt or wonder His goodness I only need to look at that little face and remember. He is for me. He is fighting for me. He has a plan. He is oh so good.
There is such freedom in resting in His goodness.
Today we celebrated her 6th birthday. I teared up. (I'm already waving the white flag ... it is just going to be a soggy year!) I am praying that this year goes by slooooowly ... May is going to be rough!
I am praying that God will remind me of His goodness ... that I will never forget or take for granted His faithfulness. He is good. He is good. He is good.
