Sovreign

Occasionally I get a wild hair that I will blog again. I know that it is a good outlet for me and that I really should do it more ... especially since I like to go back and remember where we were. And when I do, I am reminded again and again that God is sovereign.

This year in Chapel we have been singing Chris Tomlin's song "Sovereign". 

Sovereign in the mountain air

Sovereign on the ocean floor

With me in the calm

With me in the storm

Sovereign in my greatest joy

Sovereign in my deepest cry

With me in the dark

With me at the dawn

In your everlasting arms

All the pieces of my life

From beginning to the end

I can trust you

In your never failing love

You work everything for good

God whatever comes my way

I will trust you

And as I sang the song on week 2, I completely came undone. Because sitting beside me, singing along, playing with my hand, hugging me, smiling at me, batting her beautiful eyelashes at me was little sister. THE little sister from here.

Y'all. I cried when her name was on my list at the beginning of the year (and I knew it would be ... I've had 4 of her 5 siblings. And only 4 because 2 came through Kindergarten together. Boo.) I cried when she appeared in my room on the first day of school ... holding the hands of her two besties. Not because I was sad she was in my room, but because I was overcome. I remember well those days 4 years ago. I remember holding her in the airport. I remember every feeling when I found out she was coming home. I prayed hard for her ... long before I knew her name or that she had the most ah-mazing eyelashes.

They are beyond glorious. But I digress ...

And in that song I heard God whisper to me that yes. Yes He is sovereign. And if I begin to question or doubt or wonder His goodness I only need to look at that little face and remember. He is for me. He is fighting for me. He has a plan. He is oh so good. 

There is such freedom in resting in His goodness.

Today we celebrated her 6th birthday. I teared up. (I'm already waving the white flag ... it is just going to be a soggy year!) I am praying that this year goes by slooooowly ... May is going to be rough!

I am praying that God will remind me of His goodness ... that I will never forget or take for granted His faithfulness. He is good. He is good. He is good.